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well, this will probably be the last entry i write for a while, im thinking the last one im going to write till i get back home, so i better make it a good one huh? yea right.
well lets see,i dont know where to begin really, so lets just pick up where i never started.
well just when things start to somewhat look up in this shitty world, theclouds devour the sun and im thrown back into hell. yea......what fun it is to do this over and over and over again. i suppose i could stop all of this from happening but then what fun would that be? the awards for all this now are astonishing i believe, but so could just saying fuck it.
ahh, the joys and pains of assumption. what a terrible thing it is. but with it, we get a head start in a way.
so where do i go from here, well lets just spring into anything that catches my mind.
got drunk last friday, to much champagne. my brother feels the need to spend all his money by buying bottle after bottle of expensive champagne. just give me some whiskey and beer, that'll be fine with me.
i think i should really stop looking at other peoples journals to, b/c some of them just get me upset and feeling to a point, not wanted. so maybe i should stop doing that. stop looking at specific peoples journals, maybe just stop looking at one journal. the one i look at most really. one of the only ones i actually read on my friends page. but yea,, what do you think people?
lets go to another subject now, im sure we'll be back to that one soon i regret to say.
sex: how long has it been for you? for me, its ben about 5 1/2 months to 6 months. not my longest drought, but unfortunatly, i know its going to keep going. but yes,i fear on that subject many things. things i probably shouldnt go into for they might be readin right now? are youreading this right now? thats what i thoguht. well im sure your enjoying some kind of sensual pleasure someway or or another that will strike me badlysomehow, but oh well, words are meant to be broken arn't they? i didnt think so either. but that still doesnt mean one permits itself past the word of truth and lie. we shall see if your still standing in the end.
there i go rambling again, sorry about that to the other people reading this entry. which are probably not many, but anyways, where shall i go to next. of course since im not updating in a while i thought i'd go out with this repulsive entry of illusions and tricks to show pain and disgrace of so and so. so yes, lets continue.
if read this far you might as well continue reading, you've obviously got the time to waste.
well im going to show up in florida one day unexpectantly, some people will know when i shall return, most of course, do not know. but yes, it might be longer then i expected till i come back, but also, i might journey home sooner then expected, it's all in the element of suprise. wouldn't it be a suprise if i actually returned home on the date whcih was set for me almost 6 motnhs ago? maybe it wont be. maybe i shall still return on that infamous date of whcih the new year begins, but then again, maybe not. just hold on tight little kities and frogs, i will show up much to your horror probably rather then your delight. we shall find out, on the day for which is still uncertain to me, when i shall return.
well this already very very long so maybe i should end it now. what doy ou people of livejournal think? should i just update this and then in a few days end all of my lj lives on here, all 6 of them? should i end lj from my life? sounds like a possibili, or maybe i'll just lay dorment for a while. in any case, this will be last update for a while, if i do update ever again, which im sure i will though. why? because how it goes.
well deary, lets see how things are, so your horny huh? well sorry i cnt help you out, but i can only hope that your not getting anyone else to help you out. for then, you pulled a great plot, an let it loose, but of course, it fell apart in the end one way or another, but enough about this. your you, and you can do whatever that pleases you, even if it doesnt feel to goodon other people, in there mental stages of course. but yes, our a big girl, you are your own self, dow hat you want to make you happy, do what you wan to be sad. we all do deary, some of us do things that we regret, some of us dont do things for a greater goal, and stick by there convictions, as i myself believe in. but yea, i don't know if i ever had a point, maybe just some bottled up feelings that i tend to have so much of the time. but yes, i loe you of course, but you live your life, and things will happen with howeverybody does things, including you and me.
well if your still reading this then im pleased in a sense, but im sure most of you have gone off to read someone elses journal or maybe for some food or drink, or maybe even went off for a fuck, but whatever, its your lives.
spc is the place for me. yea.....well ill be going to spc next semester. ehhh, oh well, it had to happen eventually i guess. as soon as i get back i have to go and sign up for everything and all that cal. oh well.
this entry wasnt award winning im sure, but ihope you injoyed, you can look at it in certain perspectives and it might be real informative to some of you.
so remember folks, wiat for your world to crumble, and also know, that you sometimes cant stop your world from falling in on you, but maybe it falling on top of yourself isnt so bad. well, you'll just have to wait and see, i sure am.
this isn't a damn weather forcast. the theres a 99% chance of hell letting loose into our minds if some things can't be detained. its your choice. you figure it out.
i hope this didnt hurt ou in anyway, im sure it didnt. soon enough, i shall see you again.
vidy well people, its time for me to burn myself in my own dillusions and misery of hatred and love. burn till the last drop.
if you readed all the way through, you deserve a gold star. "pretend i gave you one"
yeaaa, there you go, hope you enjoy, bastards. leave a comment if you wish, i know you probably wont, i especially want YOU to leave a coment, but i doubt you will either. you allread this far, why not take it to the next step.
and so now i say so long, viddy well, goodnight. and to you i say i love you.
i'll be your savior if you gave me the chance.
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